Have you ever been overwhelmed by fear? The type of fear that leaves you shaking like a leaf in a hurricane? The type of fear that takes a long time to fully get over? The type of fear that is also called trauma? I know I hadn't till it rang my doorbell. Maybe one day I will be able to tell you the whole story. I have started the road of healing. It is going to take sometime, But God is with me.
God was with me that morning protecting me. God was with me later when the panic came back. God knew I was going to need a week in a place I felt safe taking care of dogs and had that in place weeks before. A year ago God knew I was going to need a person that I trust to walk with me down this part of the road, so he lead me to start therapy.
Just like Job who never got the answer to his question "Why did this happen to me, God?" I may never know the reason. But God is the same God. He still names the stars and leads them in seasons." Can you bind the chains of the Pleiades? Can you loosen Orion’s belt? Can you bring forth the constellations in their seasons or lead out the Bear with its cubs? Do you know the laws of the heavens? Can you set up God’s dominion over the earth? " Job 38: 31-33. The same God that cares to knows the number of hairs on my head. "Are not two sparrows sold for a farthing? and one of them shall not fall on the ground without your Father. But the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear ye not therefore, ye are of more value than many sparrows." Matthew 10:29-31.
I have wonderful people in my life that are supporting me and helping me through this. I have faith that God will carry me through this just like He has every other trial I have faced. Because my God is bigger than my fear!!
