Saturday, March 11, 2017

expected

     "Sitting in a classroom at Bob Jones University working on my business degree."   That is what I would have answered four years ago to the question "Where do you see yourself on your 21st birthday?" 
BUT... 
      That is not where I am, and that is okay. I am at home with my family, working at Quinnipiac University. I have changed and learned a lot in the last three years. I have done a lot too. I graduated Bob Jones University, moved and worked in Kansas. Moved back to CT, moved in to an apartment with Hannah. Quit one job got laid off for another. Sold a car and then bought another car. 
    God has taught me so much in the last three years. I have had lessons in being content, trust, humility, and patients. I had to be content in two not so great jobs. I had to trust God when I did not have a job. I learned humility in having to ask for help and prayer from family and others. I am learning patients in waiting on God`s timing as my dreams change to be more in line with what He has planed for me. 
    As I stand on the edge of what most call "adulthood" I look back and see how all that God has carried me through. It gives me hope and confidence for the future. That He will continue to guide my steps drawing me closer and closer to Himself. 

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Friday, February 17, 2017

waiting

   Waiting, is never easy. We do it all the time. We wait at stoplights, for food, planes, days, events and almost everything. God has been using a person in my life to teach me to wait on His timing. It is soooooo hard.
   I am reading The Devoted  By Suzanne Woods Fisher in the book is a reference to Proverbs 16:9. "A man's heart deviseth his way: but the Lord directeth his steps."  In the book one of the character says this about this verse, "Let things come to me instead of rushing at them as I usually do." (page 109)  This thought continues to run throughout the book. That thought has stuck with me the last few days. I have thought about it from every angel. I believe that God uses everything in our lives to influence us. I have a tendency to rush head long into things, it usually ends with me in trouble. God is using this book and my friend to help me see that I need to wait and pray.  Two things that do not come easy to me. I know God wants me to serve Him while I wait on him to lead, and that He has a plan. All I have to do is trust Him.  So as I wait on God and others to lead, I will pray, trust and serve. I know it will be hard, but God is good and will never leave me. I can take comfort in that.

Tuesday, January 3, 2017

2016 snapshot


 Jesus, Savior, pilot me
Over life's tempestuous sea;
Unknown waves before me roll,
Hiding rock and treacherous shoal.
Chart and compass come from Thee:
Jesus, Savior, pilot me.

 As a mother stills her child,
Thou canst hush the ocean wild;
Boisterous waves obey Thy will
When Thou say'st to them, "Be still!"
Wondrous Sovereign of the sea,
Jesus, Savior, pilot me.

When at last I near the shore,
And the fearful breakers roar
'Twixt me and the peaceful rest,
Then, while leaning on Thy breast,
May I hear Thee say to me,
"Fear not, I will pilot thee."
Jesus, Savior Pilot Me~ Edward Hopper

2016 held a lot of unknown waves for me. I switched jobs, more than once. Lost my grandmother, had issues with my car, struggled with fear, doubt, worry and ongoing migraines. 2016 also held moments of Jesus telling those waves "Be Still".  I reconnected with my younger sister after almost a year with little to no communication. My older sister learned she is pregnant and due March 18, 2017. Dad and my Brother in law helped to resolve my car issues. Sisters in Christ  helped calm my fears, remove my doubt and erase my worries.  If I were to pick a word for 2016 it would be Grace. If I were to pick a name of God`s that meant the most to me in 2016 it would be Jehovah Jireh, meaning my Lord Provides. I look foward to seeing what God does in my life in 2017