Thursday, July 21, 2016

My plan vs Gods will

Plans are what hold me together. I love plans and planing. Every night before bed I clue mom into my plans for the next day. Every morning I find out Moms plan and reminder her of what I have going on for the day. Plans work, they are safe and have a sense of comfort to them. When my plans change suddenly or fall apart all together, I scramble to get a new plan and move forward. Sometimes this makes me angry, upset and sets me on a path of worry.  My plans are limited, I only can plan  1-3 days in advance max, Frustrating! ...

  BUT,

Gods will is perfect. God plans every detail of my life to work for His will and desires. I am going to let you in on a well guarded secret, God desires our lives to glorify HIM.  Shocking, trust me I know! One more secret, if you can stand it, God is good and only good can glorify Him fully. Let that soak in for  a minute. We, all of humanity, where made by God, for God. He loves us and wants what is best for us. Sometimes what is best is not what is easy. God has planed out all of eternity. Now I am not going to open the Case File labeled Free will VS Predestination. I will leave that to the Bible experts. God can plan out and know what will happen in 5 minutes, tomorrow, next month and 10 years down the road.  So the hard thing in your life at this very moment might be readying you for something down the road. One of my sisters in her schooling is working on just starting algebra. We are talking N+6+2=12 kind of stuff. She is finding it hard and wants to take the easy route and not do it right, Mom had to explain to her that what she is learning now will make what she will be learning easier. I could not face and deal with the things I am dealing with in my life if I had not gone thorough the stuff I went thorough to get here. 

I found this song to be truly encouraging in helping to work somethings out in my head. Thy Will by Hillary Scott

Sunday, June 5, 2016

planting and transplanting

"The Lord is not through with you yet. You are to bloom where you are planted." ~ Mr. Bridges from Facing the Giants

Revelation 3:8 - I know thy works: behold, I have set before thee an open door, and no man can shut it: for thou hast a little strength, and hast kept my word, and hast not denied my name.

Jeremiah 29:5  - Build ye houses, and dwell in them; and plant gardens, and eat the fruit of them;

" When the Lord closes a door, somewhere He opens a window." ~Maria from the Sound of Music

Laid off, new thing to me. I am left totally confused and a little bit hurt. A job doing what I went to college for gone, A job I tried my hardest to make work and succeed no longer mine in the blink of an eye. I am not sure if it is something I said or did or if it simply a matter of fiances. It was be no means perfect; when is life ever perfect for more than 5 minutes? But I learned. I learned more about who I am, and how to be comfortable with myself. I learned that to bloom I need to focus on the good and what God is doing and not on what is going wrong. I learned that some are out to save face and will throw you under the bus even if you are not the issue. I learned what it must have felt like to have people insinuate false hoods about your character.

BUT... God is still good! He is still in control. He is the great planter and he saw that I accomplished what He had for me there to do and now it is time for me to be transplanted. When you transplant something it can be for many reasons. One reason my mom and grandmother transplant plants is to help them grow better. Another reason is to dived and spread that plant to a new part of the garden causing it to grow bigger and more beautiful. So what ever reason God is transplanting me for I know it is his will at work and He will look after me because He will never leave me.  

Sunday, May 8, 2016

Mothers day

Happy Mother's day!!  Many a young girl has been quoted "When I grow up I want to be just like my mom".  Many a young mother has said "I have become my mother!!!"  I for one would be honored to be half of the woman my mom is. My mom takes each card she is dealt and deals with it with prayer and turning to her sisters in Christ and her Lord for support. She loves all of her girls with amazing devotion. She protects all her 4-Hers as if they are here own kids. She encourages me to take opportunities with both hands, but she has also taught me when and how to let go. She wants me to be successful in my own eye, but more importantly successful in the eyes of our God. My mom knows when I need a push and when I need a hug. She understands my need for baking, books and the word of God. When (IF) I have kids I want them to say "I want to be like Grandma"

Tuesday, February 23, 2016

flour, salt and life

This morning (way too early if you ask me) I got up to make my sisters cinnamon rolls for breakfast. As I sat there waiting for them to rises and the oven to heat up I started thinking about the process of baking or cooking ( a very dangerous thing this early in the morning). I thought about how to make the delicious breakfast I took flour, salt, yeast, milk, butter, sugar, yeast and cinnamon. Mixed them a certain way and order to get a cinnamon roll. Then I started thinking about all the applications that flour has. It is in almost every baked good, a thickener for gravies and sauces, it is used  as a coating on fried items and the main ingredient in homemade playdough. All this is achieved by adding and working the flour in different ways. (stay with me here. I told you it is a very dangerous thing me thinking this early in the morning.) The next thought that came up was how God takes men which are on the most concrete of terms the same, the flour if  you will. Add different things to our lives to make us each into a different item. Thing live where you grew up, how you were raised, your emotions, your personality, your worldview, trials in your life. So when God is done working with us we each look and act different even if we started in the same household with the same rules and parents. What I am not saying is that God makes anyone of us to sin but that we run different ways when confronted with a trail or test. Some will run to God as we all should and some will run the other way. In the book of Jeremiah in chapter 18 the Lord God told the prophet Jeremiah to go and watch the potter work. As Jeremiah stood there watching God spoke to him again and said in verse 6 "O house of Israel, cannot I do with you as this potter? saith the Lord. Behold, as the clay is in the potter's hand, so are ye in mine hand, O house of Israel. "  The same is true for us non Israelites, we are clay in the Father's hand.                  

Sunday, February 7, 2016

cast and care


"When fear feels bigger than my faith
And struggles steal my breath away
When my back's pressed up against the wall
With the weight of my worries stacked up tall
You're strong enough to hold it all 
I will cast my cares on You
You're the anchor of my hope
The only one who's in control
I will cast my cares on You
I'll trade the troubles of this world
For Your peace inside my soul"
That is the start to Cast My Cares by Finding Favor.
As I listened to that song this week my focus was drawn to the words "cast" and "cares". Cast means to throw something forcefully in a specified direction. Cares means serious attention or consideration applied to doing something correctly or to avoid damage or risk. It can also mean to feel concern or interest; attach importance to something. Putting it all together to "cast my cares" is to throw what is holding all of my attention or thoughts in the direction of the one who promises to give me peace. 
The song goes on to say 
 "This war's not what I would've chosen
But You see the future no one knows yet
And there's still good when I can't
See the working of Your hands
You're holding it all"
The whole reason why God can give peace as we throw him our fears, worries and concerns, is because He is total and complete control. One would think with the amount that I talk about God being in control I would have that aspect of trusting down pat. Far form the truth! 
Another thing about God when we cast our cares on him is he ACCEPTS them all! No care is to small, He takes them all without sorting them they are all important to him. So never be afraid to cast your cares to God in prayer he is all ways there and never leaves you alone. In fact he is waiting to hear from you. He is waiting for you to stop trying to figure it out on your own and for you to look up and reach for him.       

Monday, December 7, 2015

Lessons and Blessings

If you know me or my family you have most likely heard the news that I am moving back home. Tomorrow I will be tuning over the keys to my apartment and leaving Kansas. As I look back over the months since I moved here I can see the many lessons I have learned and the blessings I have been given, most of the time the two were intertwined. I have be blessed with finding a wonderful church body that I will miss till we meet again in the sweet by and by. I have been blessed with several new friends, all of whom I will cherish the rest of my life. I have learned family often mean well even when they do not totally understand you. I have learned how to navigate city buses.I have learned how to speak up for my self at home and in the work place (if only a little bit). I have learned the blessing of silence and the blessing of noise. I have learned what a blessing payday can be. I have been blessed by the wonderful birds that visited the pound out my window. Mostly I have learned more about the God I serve. In the last few months I have had to draw closer to Him and my life is so much better because of it. I do not know what the next part of my life will hold, but I know who holds me in His hand and the people who hold me in their prayers and hearts. I am thankful for all of lessons and the blessings I have been given these last months.         

Friday, November 20, 2015

Day 20~ T

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1. Teachers Thank you to all the teachers in my life