Slow Learner

Ever feel like you are a slow learner? I do. why must I be so slow to learn the lessons God has for me? Every time I feel like I have a grasp on trusting God with everything I get blindsided and slat I fail again. But God is always faithful and never leaves me flat on my face. He always picks me up again. He is so good. Today I had to get a credit card so that I can pay for my dog Pip to get a surgery done in a few weeks. As I dove away from the vets office this overwhelming fear of  "what in the world am I going to do" brought me to the point of tears. As I drove back to my moms to drop off Pippy and apply for the plastic card of doom, the song Bulletproof by Citizen-way came on over my radio. Right at a point I was feeling less then "bulletproof".  The chorus goes :

"I got my armor now

No fear no doubt gonna shoot me down

Now I’m bulletproof because of you You 

Because of You

And now I’m bulletproof because of you You 

Because of You

You conquered the grave

Your love Love made a way

Now I’m not afraid"

God used those words to lift me out of the valley of  fear and sorrow.  Then a bit later He was so good to use another song to help me understand the power of waiting. That song was Hard Love by Needtobreathe.  

"You know the situation can't be right

And all you ever do is fight

But there's a reason that the road is long

It take some time to make your courage strong

Hold on tight a little longer

What don't kill ya, makes ya stronger

Get back up, 'cause it's a hard love

You can't change without a fallout

It's gon' hurt, but don't you slow down

Get back up, 'cause it's a hard love  "

When you get blindsided with fear, doubt and life in general remember that God is still in control, and that He still has a plan. (still working on that!)